Early morning its typical Saturday. My eyes hurt because i watched three movies all in one night yesterday. Don’t ask me anything. i can’t even recall the movies and who killed who..which was the main character in which..it’s all jumbled in here (pointing to my head)
Scrolling through my cellphone now, trying not to squint my eyes..checking facebook. Woah” my crush uploaded a new post..can’t see his face though, what a bummer. Would have been really nice to know how he looks after all these years in person. Intrested?? Hahha nah..lets just say watching him is a secret hobby. Oh” my ex posted something too. Gosh he is handsome! More of like cutie pie now..his chubby cheeks looks better than bunnies..i tell you that! Last time i checked, he had that picture with a gun shooting all the heart shaped cartoon stuffs..What happened to us? More like,what happened to me? He hates me now.I hate myself. i deserve that..i fell for a ‘computer screen’ can you believe that? ‘It dosen’t count’ his words ring in my ears… ‘It does..’ i remember my reply. And then ‘boom boom’ there went my first love with the wind..
A computer screen!! You must be shocked. Yeah how dumb..lol. That’s me. I am crazy hahaha. Don’t wanna go there now. Don’t wanna sit alone in that corner..sulking. But again,don’t be shocked when you see me hugging that screen. i am an emotional wreck. Not again..for God sake! Here is pepsodent..squeezing from the bottom of the tube..pea size quantity..brush brush..now smile. CHEESE!!
I LOOK AMAZING. DON’T I??
So back to facebook scrolling..all my ‘now’ friends, look jolly, working their butts off trying to achieve something.Nothing new. life paces fast forward for meds people. Although to whole world it seems like we are the one who is stuck.. ‘Are you still studying?’they ask, when they have graduated. Then the same question, when they have recieved their pay roll and again..when they are getting married.. ‘Will you please stop!’ Have some mercy, you are not the only one saying that to us. You are among hundreds..Though, yeah i admit ok” cuddling books on valentines day does suck. Happy now??hah
Bored…So i am scrolling my school friends. I was a meanie and the ‘unpopular one’. Needless to say, i don’t have any school friends in my friendlist. ok..ok.. i admit i even rejected a handful of requests. No reasons. So, i go through entire long process, of checking one of my bestie’s facebook and stalk some that i used to know. And wow! There is a difference right there..you can tell by the eyes the difference between a medic and non medic student. Life has been sucked out of us..help!!
I take back what i said in my first few paragraphs now. I do.My Life has been moving slow… is it even moving at all? When did that girl start looking like that? When did that boy become that? Omg..where in the world is that beach? When did these.. people even have the time to travel that far corner of the world? And most of all”’ why is she posting a picture of a 5yr old kid and saying ‘my son’!!. What is happening?..where was i? Somebody explain.
And here is the part..’You can’t even think of starting a family till you are a registar..if you are stop thinking right now’ that’s what a senior doc told me like just 3days back. I love babies.Not all the babies. But yes. Am i even going to have one?Well screw that! Am i even living my life right? To the fullest i mean..
Well after an hour of back and forth thinking here is what i have concluded. Everyone has their pace..some are slow like turtles, some are fast like hare. None of us has same path..none of us has same time. We are revolving around our own orbit..what we make is upto us. What matters at the end, is how much we made of ourselves and how much we feel fulfilled ..before reaching that red ribbon at the end. What do you think? i am WISE huh?? 🙂