Many times in life you can’t avoid feeling down even though you tell yourself ‘there is no place for sad thoughts in your mind’.
And you try talking yourself out,saying ‘Hey for God sake you are bachelor high on prime now, you don wana carry that emo face and go around mopping. If you wanna mop go and close yourself in the closet’. But it dosen’t work..which at other times mostly does.
And you throw yourself at the floor and watch the ceiling..thinking.. ‘You can change everything..start from scratch but your past and your circumstances will always be the same’.
It’s true. Isn’t it? Sometimes there is no escape. Not even a small hole that gives you a hope that one day if you are gonna starve yourself right you might actually fit through that tiny opening and walk out.
But you plan for escape anyways in your head..extra detailed..if you are like me. (I am a planner!!!) I Think of disappearing into far away lands to oblivion all the time and start fresh. Yeah i know what the hell am i doing?
The thing is no matter what the circumstances were..you were never trapped. You can either submerge yourself and feel pity or make the best out of your circumstances and be proud. It sucks i know. I cannot even guess how much frustAting it is for you like you can’t tell how much is it for me. Noone is on the same page.
But hey..’Its all in the mind. DON’T let it beat you. You are gonna be ok at the end of the day’.