I pulled the trigger
Pindrop silence, just a sound of the clock was ticking
It was past 12 in night, I was not sleeping
The nib scribbled on its own, like driven by an unknown force
I weeped silently, as I wrote my suicide note.
Who was I to blame? I couldn’t think of a name
You, him, her and the perhaps the list included everyone
under my eye range..
But why? why was I doing this? I didn’t know
my mind was fogged, I was told to just follow
follow, a strange voice coming from inside
it was not me..but it was in my mind sitting tight
saying ‘ pull the trigger and let it go’
saying ‘mercy yourself but donot be remorsed’
And then, memories after memories it played
It was determined; there was no stopping its madness
Brainwashed; I had fall into unknown
A strange surge rushed through me to end this all for once
So I lifted the revolver, I pulled the trigger,
Hoping one shot and I will end this game forever
A flash light and I fell to the ground ‘thud’
into your arms..
The battle of my life has been lost.